Ryan update

Time for a little Ryan update!

Ryan has been on alert for the Japan humanitarian efforts for over a week, and was just released yesterday.. Now he will more than likely remain in Washington until he deploys back out to Kyrgyzstan in May. I can't pretend that this doesn't put a little smile on my face... I would have been stressing more than usual if he was sent to Japan or Spain for the Libya issue. Now he is just mostly bored. Poor baby. I miss him so much :/ It sucks when you only see your best friend for about ONE month total out of the year.

Hmm.. either way.. he is doing great and claims to miss me too ;]

Our 4 hour Skype session :] He is so cute!

Day 10 – What is your favorite way to pamper yourself?

Hmm.. I'm truly not much of a girly girl.. I only really ever get mani/pedis unless I KNOW I am going to see Ryan.. haha :] Also, I always buy myself clothes and such after finals to award myself for my good grades >.< 

Day 11 – The greatest vacation or trip you've ever had.

SAN FRANCISCO!!!!! :D UGH. I love it there. The weather, the architecture, the atmosphere.

EVERYTHING I absolutely loved it. I want to take a road trip there with Ryan some time in life :] I can only imagine how amazing that would be

Day 12 – A photograph of the town you grew up in. What did you love/hate about it?

Rancho Cucamonga :] 

I'll admit... where I live is sort of awesome.

We have the beach and the mountains right outside of our windows.

My house is really close to the mountains, so the view in the mornings is amazing :]

What don't I like?

I am going to have to say the majority of people who live here haha

Let's just say... that a certain type of mind frame is abundant here..

One that I don't always enjoy...

looooookitttttttttttttt

Day 8 – The best advice you've ever received.

You can't properly love someone until you learn to love yourself! By far the BEST advice ever given to me.. and as cliche as it seems... It is so true and so important :D When this was first said to me, I didn't quite understand it... but after a few years of going out and flirting with affection and love..... I now know... I am so much happier now with my life... with myself... Never before did I realize how necessary it was to learn how to put yourself first for the the sole benefit of YOURSELF... My previous lack of ability to do so is what I believe led me into the terrible relationships in my past...

Now... I have a great life.. a great man, who I love with all of my heart.. and I love ME :]

Day 9 – A photo of your last significant purchase. Did it satisfy a need or a want?

No, I didn't buy a plane.. haha

But the last thing I purchased that had TRUE meaning to me, was

the ticket for the first time I went to go visit Ryan on base :]

Not only did it mean so much to me because I got to visit my love,

but also it signified a new beginning for me at home

in terms of how my parents viewed me and my relationship :]

Dream Wedding

Day 7 – Tell us about your wedding or dream wedding.

WHOA MAN... Weddings... Marriage.. WHOA.... I suppose I think about it from time to time.... What it would be like.. who I would want as the "husband" figure in my life ;] ...

But to be honest.. my man and I are so young... I am not feeling a need to change our status just yet. I think we will know when we are ready when the time comes... as for now though.. I'm ok with being a girlfriend... Doesn't change the level of love and devotion one bit.

That being said...

I want a simple wedding ;] aha

I don't need anything huge and extravagant.

I would like it to be towards the evening...

I would only want close love ones there... People who love and support my marriage decision :]

I want a strapless dress! :D simple... sort of like my prom dress.. but white >.<

As for everything else.. I haven't really thought of the details..

besides.. I would want my future groom to have some input as well :]

I don't know.. I'm not too much of a girly girl when it comes to this I suppose.

I just want the right man standing next to me :]

Day 2,3,4,5,6?

Day 2 – Something you really don't like about yourself.
Day 3 – A photo of something you ate today. Was is it worth the calories?
Day 4 – Something or someone you can't live without, because you’ve tried.
Day 5 – Something you definitely could live without.
Day 6 – Tell us about your best friend when you were 16, and where you two stand today.

Day 2- Something you really don't like about yourself

I eat when I'm stressed :/
I doubt myself
I over think EVERYTHING
... the list goes on and on ahaha ;]

Day 3 – A photo of something you ate today. Was is it worth the calories?

Venti skinny caramel macchiato iced and upside down!!!! :D
160 calories of AMAZING haha


Day 4 – Something or someone you can't live without, because you’ve tried.

My love, Mister Ryan John :] I have tried and I never want to try again.
I love you babe. With all of my heart and soul (yes I have one :P)
You make me want to be better in all aspects of life, and no one can make me
feel as beautiful as you make me feel...
You are amazing and I can't wait to see what we can build together<3

Day 5 – Something you definitely could live without.

The effects that carbs have on my body haha.
I wish I could eat like some of the guys I know and not gain one pound.
;]
I gain weight just WATCHING some of those cows eat ;]



Day 6 – Tell us about your best friend when you were 16, and where you two stand today.

Well... I had two best friends when I was 16.
Miss Jaclyn Rose and Mr Ryan John :]
And they are still my best friends today.
They both know me..the real me.. inside and out
... the good and the bad...
and they still love me for everything that I am.
Flaws and all :]

You two have helped shape who I am today :]
You both do all kinds of right ;]

Ok I'm all caught up!
I'm skyping Ryan right now so talk to you all tomorrow! :]

30 Day Spring Challenge :]

Yes, I am taking part in this :] 

I think it will be a great way to get me back into the blogging scene.

Finals are done, and my love is gone again :/ 

Amazingly though... it never gets any easier.. saying goodbye to him.

I have gotten stronger though.

I have learned to focus on the positive.

When I am with him, that is all that matters. 

That he is there with me.

At that very second.

At that very moment.

I have mastered the art of holding on to his touch.

Memorized every facial expression.

And I can replay the sound of his voice over and over in my head.

I no longer dread the day that he has to leave again, because

I know that is inevitable.

Instead I focus on the day when we no longer have to say goodbye for 5 months at a time.

I graduate at the end of the year, and Ryan is currently in the running for the ability to 

rank up to senior airman early :] (I'M SO PROUD OF HIM! :D)

........... 2012 is the year :]

I am now more convinced than ever..

WE make sense<3

Ryan is currently on alert for the Japan humanitarian effort, so we will see how all of that pans out. I know if he goes out there that I will barely speak to him.... I don't want to be selfish, because I know the need over there is quite excessive...

I just wish he was safe in Washington.. 

He said that he could possibly be over there for about a  month, and then

he would return for his deployment back to K land scheduled for the first week of May.

Dear Air Force.. you are shaving years off of my life I hope you know ;]

Day 1

A picture of you and something you like about yourself

I love my drive.

If I REALLY want something, I'll get it ;]

My ambition makes me who I am, and it has helped me get

to where I am today...

Happy :]

March 4th through 15th

It came and it went... It always goes by so fast, but I do everything I can to hold on to it...
I'll see him in July.. which truthfully isn't THAT long.... but it is TOO long to be away from 
the man that I love...
Here are some pictures of our time spent together :]
I dropped him off at the airport a couple of hours ago...
I miss him already.
I love you babe. 
You make me happier than I've been by far

Asleep on my couch with a Tinkerbell blanket ;]

Playing backgammon with my Grandma?!

Waiting to catch our flight to California together<3

Trying to jump start his shitty jeep ;]

Going to the Spokane mall!

He bought me this back in Kyrgyzstan :] 

Spokane<3

Playing wii with his best friend Jose :]

Attractive face babe? ;]

Pro wii golfer!

Lou! His and his mom's chubby beagle :]

Ryan's little cousin Aubrey.. She liked me >.<

Squished on his tiny twin bed in Washington!

Sushi with Ryan and Caleb! haha

Look at the love in their eyes... Kelsey and I are concerned ;]

Love me some Spokane ;]

I promised him I wouldn't cry when I dropped him off this morning...

and I didn't!

....

When I walked through the front door of my house though..

I lost it :'( 

haha but shhhh don't tell him that ;)

He is set to deploy again back to Manas on May 3rd, but he is trying to 

leave in April.

This means that the new countdown is set for July 18thish :]

Can't wait<3