Thursday, January 13, 2011


I never used to be this way. In fact, I used to constantly belittle people who looked, acted, felt this way. I'm talking NO RESPECT. Even when I was in a situation where there were countless possibilities of actually being this way.

I swore to never go down this cornball road.
Yet here I am, as cheesy in love as you can get.

I'm talking every sappy cutesy itty bitty love feeling there is.

I feel it.

You know, there was once a time where I had no heart.
Well, not physically of course.
I suppose it resulted from my string of shitty relationships and awful decisions.
But whatever.

The point is, I once had someone tell me that I looked like I ate SOULS for breakfast.

That was said.
About me.

Like I was some sort of mythical creature that snatched naughty people away in the night.

And then all of a sudden..

Ryan comes back into my life and I'm head over heels!
Damn him!!!!!!!!

Have you ever seen The Grinch? How his heart grew three sizes?
Mine grows five sizes every time someone mentions his NAME.
Ryan's.... not the Grinch's.

And I don't know what to do about it! I can't stop it! 
Every love song, good and lame.. reminds me of him!
I smile every time I think about him, I glow when I see him.
And I am never more content than I am when I am in the same room with him.

It's sickening. I have a terminal illness. 
And I'm afraid there is no cure.

You bring out the lame in me babe(:

Favorite thing for the day? 
My Air Force blanket of course (: 

Ryan gave it to me when he came home on his first leave.
That wasn't exactly the greatest time, and honestly... 
I thought we weren't going to last much longer after that...
but... things have got to get worse before they can get better right?
And that they did.
We are better now than we ever been before.
And... I sleep with this blanket every night<3

Valentines day is coming up, and I can't wait to start making his box!
I think I have a pretty decent idea... I'll let you guys know as it develops more though!
Hope everyone is doing well!


  1. I totally know what you mean. I used to laugh at my exes and tell them to shut up (in a serious manner) when they were romantic or sappy. Even with my boyfriends, I was never sappy or into it. Now, I love all of those sappy things because it's the right guy!

  2. I love the AF blanket! I made my husband one when we were dating and he loved it!

  3. I love the blanket! I am going to try to make one for C before he leaves!

  4. Aww, isn't it great when you have someone that brings out the lame in you ;) Even better if they join in on the cheesiness now and again.
    Can't wait to hear about the Valentine's Day Package.